sometimes I feel as though nobody understands what im trying to say. i know everyone feels like that every once in a while but i just feel like everthying i write, say, or do is taken the wrong way and i really hope that isnt true. i just have trouble saying how i feel or what i need because i dont want to be selfish again. i just wish there was someone who understood why i freakout about drunk driving or why i hate when people talk about doing drugs all the time or drinking untill they pass out. i wish there was someone in my life who would be there for me when i became really lonely even if its for five minutes. its hard sometimes but im trying to sweept out the dusty corners of my life and plant flowers with aindow there. i dont want to be sad ever again.